One term of a new syllabus was more than enough. I requested that I be allowed to change back to my regular curriculum. With a lot of pomp and splendour (which can be translated as arguments) this was allowed.
Today seemed to be the first day of school all over again. The bafflement, the confusion, the urge to run back home and snuggle down in a soft bed, all the symptoms of a first day were back clearer than ever. Unfortunately today was worse. Yet again, how neglected brilliant subjects are hit me. Hard. Economics and Biology run parallel so I have to choose between the two and and also take up a third subject since I cannot do both. Telling me this while your eyes are shooting daggers at me was not enough. *You had to make it worse by telling me to take Chemistry as the teacher is qualified yet again. And the worst is that you have done something I believe no teacher should. I now doubt myself and anxiously go through all websites to confirm what I have decided is right. You made me doubt myself. What I've been working towards since probably second grade now seems irrelevant.
Chemistry. Sure I'll do Chem, so you'll get off my back. Do you want that? Because I'll be the only one blamed in the long run if something goes wrong. You'll take the credit, if out of the blue, I realise how wonderful Chemistry is and decide to go win a Nobel Prize.
"Don't do it because you like it," you caution me. Have you taken any effort to find out where I'm going? You feel I want to do Economics because I have a friend doing that subject. Wrong. And as for taking subjects out of the thin air, you have no idea how detailed my study plan is. For the simple reason, you never bothered to find out.
Realise that you're ruining not just my life, but maybe others too. Chemistry I will not do. Nor Math. Not any subject you suggest do I feel like doing now. But know this.
I'm going to study and get into the college of my dreams. And when you go around, feeling that you led to my success, I'll be thanking myself for not listening to you.
*Refer to the article "Can I please study to learn?"
Today seemed to be the first day of school all over again. The bafflement, the confusion, the urge to run back home and snuggle down in a soft bed, all the symptoms of a first day were back clearer than ever. Unfortunately today was worse. Yet again, how neglected brilliant subjects are hit me. Hard. Economics and Biology run parallel so I have to choose between the two and and also take up a third subject since I cannot do both. Telling me this while your eyes are shooting daggers at me was not enough. *You had to make it worse by telling me to take Chemistry as the teacher is qualified yet again. And the worst is that you have done something I believe no teacher should. I now doubt myself and anxiously go through all websites to confirm what I have decided is right. You made me doubt myself. What I've been working towards since probably second grade now seems irrelevant.
Chemistry. Sure I'll do Chem, so you'll get off my back. Do you want that? Because I'll be the only one blamed in the long run if something goes wrong. You'll take the credit, if out of the blue, I realise how wonderful Chemistry is and decide to go win a Nobel Prize.
"Don't do it because you like it," you caution me. Have you taken any effort to find out where I'm going? You feel I want to do Economics because I have a friend doing that subject. Wrong. And as for taking subjects out of the thin air, you have no idea how detailed my study plan is. For the simple reason, you never bothered to find out.
Realise that you're ruining not just my life, but maybe others too. Chemistry I will not do. Nor Math. Not any subject you suggest do I feel like doing now. But know this.
I'm going to study and get into the college of my dreams. And when you go around, feeling that you led to my success, I'll be thanking myself for not listening to you.
*Refer to the article "Can I please study to learn?"
